Lillian's first snow

It snowed for the second time in Seoul this season; the first time it didn't really stick. We woke up the other morning and found snow on the ground! It continued to snow on and off throughout the day but most of it melted the following day.

Monkey See Monkey Do...

Sitting up

My Journey to meet Lillian

Lillian's First Tea Party

We found a couple English style tea houses in Sinchon. We originally intended to spend the day with Lillian at the Christmas Cafe (a cafe with more winter decor than Christmas decor) but they were closed. So, we had a tea party instead!

She's getting stronger

Lillian is getting stronger, she can lift her head more and more each day! She still lifts much higher when she is on one of our tummies but she is getting pretty high off the floor now.

Lillian's Buddhist Blessing

Greg and I have been learning about Buddhism while we have been in Korea, we feel the philosophy matches more of our values and beliefs. Buddhism focuses on self, being at peace with yourself and the world around you; things are not done to help your own ego but rather focuses on in general being a good person. Many other religions stemmed from Buddhist beliefs. We want to teach Lillian the Buddhist philosophy so we got her blessed at a Buddhist temple. She even wore a dress and shoes for the first time :) After, the monks prepared a feast for us and even drove us home since they were worried about miss Lillian being too cold.

We were originally going to give her a Korean Buddhist name; however, the arrangements got a little mixed up. Instead we had some Korean friends give her one. Her Korean name is:

It is the Korean word for Lily. She was born in the year of the Tiger so the Tiger Lily suits her well!

2 Months Old

Lillian is now 2 months old! She now weighs 10lbs 4 oz and is 20 1/2 inches long! She is changing so much everyday. Now her interests are things with bright colors and big designs, previously it was just lights. She is recognizing my voice more and more; I find if she is crying I can talk to her from the other room and it seems to calm her a bit. She clearly recognizes me because now she stops crying when she sees me. I believe she recognizes Greg but not to the same extent.


Greg has been wearing Lillian a lot more lately since it is so cold outside. His jacket is big enough to zip her up and keep her warm. He seems to enjoy it although he does get a little tired having to keep her from crying when she wakes up.

Lillian met Santa!

Lillian met German Santa at the German Christmas Market in Seoul! He is different than our Western Santa. You can read about how Santa is viewed in Germany by clicking here to be directed to our other blog, The Sims Family Adventures.

New Smiles, New Noises :)

I think miss Lillian is realizing she can make noises. We think she tries to laugh but it kind of just comes out as a squeal :)

I have been meaning to do this for a while now... below is a motion tween of my belly growth week by week to meet miss Lillian:

First Smiles :)

Bath Time

1 month old photos

Visiting with Mema

My mom has been here for a week so far and we have had a few outings. Below are pictures of her visit:

Gym time

I made Lillian a little pixie hat since most of the other hats were too big for her. This one has a strap to keep it on which is very helpful when she is in the moby wrap.

tummy time

First milestones

Lillian has been tracking things with her eyes, she can see better and can now follow objects if they are close enough in front of her. This is her first developmental milestone! We have also begun working on her second milestone of lifting her head up. During our activity time we have been having tummy time where she is placed on her tummy to help build her neck muscles. I find she lifts her head more when tummy time is on top of my tummy but she still lifts her head when she is on the floor too. Usually for activity time we do a little on her tummy and then a little in her gym. This month we are also working on helping her identify her hands by placing objects in them and then bringing them closer to her eyes. Apparently she is already putting things in her mouth! You can see her bring the lion rattle up to her mouth in the pictures.

First Doctor's appointment

Lillian had her first doctors appointment on Wed. and she did very well... actually slept through most of it. At her appointment she was weighed and measured and is now 8lbs 7 oz and 20 inches long! So she gained just shy of 3 lbs and grew 2 inches in a month! She got one shot this visit and did well, she only cried for a second and I actually think it was more because I was holding her leg while she was trying to sleep. The next visit though, she will get four. The doctor checked her out and said she is looking good!

I can't believe Lillian is already 4 weeks old! We have started a routine and she is sleeping in 4 hr stretches throughout the night most nights. We have been following the routine as described in the book The Baby Whisperer by Tracy Hogg. Lillian is still a hard sleeper so I have to wake her up every 3 hrs to eat to make sure she will sleep through the night. She has been breastfeeding with success now; however, we had a rough start. Lillian is more wakeful during the day, often awake for an hour for feeding and some play time and then takes a two hour nap. We repeat the process throughout the day and then she gets two cluster feedings in the evening where she is fed every 2 hours and gets put right back to bed. She gets one final feed between 10 and 11pm but she is asleep for that feed. This helps her sleep throughout the night and she usually only wakes up between 2 and 3am. As her tummy continues to grow she will be able to eat more she will not need the early morning feed. She can grasp very well and she is working on building her neck muscles and raises her head when she is on her tummy.

We had to get a second professional photo for her Korean visa this week. Although we have additional copies of the first photo, the Korean visa takes a different size and we didn't realize that when we took the first ones. This time I held her and it seemed to work much better. Seeing both pictures, I realize how awesome of a shot we got the first time.

This week Greg took care of Lillian one afternoon while I went to a doctors appointment. When I got home, this is what I found:

Seems she wore him out but is wide awake herself!

After another feeding, she was so tired from our outing to take the photo for the visa that she fell asleep propped up on my leg. I only set her there for a second so I could get her blanket ready but by the time I finished she was out!

More Lillian Photos

I've been having a lot of fun getting photos of Lillian but the sleepy ones are difficult to get!

Registering Lillian

We registered Lillian as a U.S. citizen this week! It wasn't too hard but a lot of paperwork. She will even get a passport to travel back to the states, it should be arriving in a couple weeks. Of course it was very difficult to get a photo of her... they wanted one with her eyes open and face turned to the camera.

My dad takes passport photos at the post office and he said they should just let me hold her and put a white sheet over my arm so you don't see me; however, everything in Korea is done differently. I don't think they get many people coming in asking for passport photos for a baby because the guy looked at us like we were crazy. To get this photo we laid her on a white background while I tried to hold her arms down from flailing in her face and keep her from crying. This was a zoomed in version of the photo and I'm surprised how well it turned out. They also took photos with me holding her that they would just photo shop my arm out but we didn't pick any of those.

Lillian's hiccups

Lillian got the hiccups all the time in the tummy and she continues to get them now almost every day.

The kitties meet Lillian

We took some video of the day we brought Lillian home and she met the kitties. When I was in the hospital, Greg would bring home blankets we had swaddled her with during the day to help get them used to her smell before she arrived. They are very cautious around her and surprisingly Baloo is more curious than Oliver; normally it would be the other way around. Slowly they are warming up to her and getting used to her.

Miss Lillian was born

I was admitted into the hospital around 10am Oct. 7th to be induced since my blood pressure was high and has been climbing; we have been watching it closely to make sure it didn't turn into pre-eclampsia (a condition where my kidneys would begin to fail and spill protein into my body). I was 37 weeks and 4 days. Induction took a long time to start, while waiting they monitored me and the baby to see if I was having any contractions on my own. I had an epidural placed and ready to go while we waited (the guy messed up 4 times!) They finally started me on a drip to start labor around 2pm; however, they only upped the dose every 2-3 hrs so I didn't start having contractions till around midnight or 1am. I figured it would be a long night, when the contractions finally started they came on quick and hard at about 2-3 min apart; they checked me and said I was only between 2 and 2 1/2 centimeters. I tried my Hypnobabies and focused on relaxing until I couldn't take the pressure in my back anymore, they started my epidural and I rested till about 3am. Once my contractions were regular they turned off the induction medicine. By 3cm I noticed a very strong pressure and it was starting to feel like I needed to push, they checked me again and said I was only 4cm. From this point on I realize how difficult it is to communicate with people who don't speak English regularly! I kept saying I felt like pushing and that I had a lot of pressure. Eventually Lillian's heart rate kept fluctuating greatly and I'm sure my blood pressure was high just based on the amount of times they took it. I tried to convince them I needed to push for maybe an hr, they even stopped my epidural thinking that is what was causing Lillian's distress. Based on the amount of people in the room I thought we were going to go in for an emergency c-section, they did everything trying to make her heart rate stabilize. One of the on call doctors finally decided to strip my membranes and break my water. Again, contraction after contraction I begged them to let me push... turns out my bag of water was causing me to not dilate because I went from 4cm to 10 in about an hr to an hr and a half. Unfortunately, since things progressed so quickly after that my doctor was not there; something I was a bit surprised at since they were practically prepping me for a c-section just a short time prior. Once they let me push I could have had her out in 4 pushes but that didn't happen.... Korea does not have malpractice insurance so no one is willing to be liable if you are not their patient. I pushed 3 times and her head was practically out! I was forced to breath through contractions for the next 20-30 min while they kept pushing her head back in trying to wait for my doctor!!!!! My body literally kept trying to push her out. Although I swore I wouldn't be one of those women who scream during labor, I unfortunately was. I don't think it would have been that way if they would have just delivered her when she was ready to come out instead of waiting for my doctor. They tried to say if I pushed I'd tear but after doing that for so long I now know they were just trying to stall. My doctor arrived and in one final push she was out....she arrived at 5:45am. She is small and weighed 5 lbs 7 oz. and 18 inches long!

Greg was in the room for most of the labor and for initial pushing until I was told to stop. He was able to see her little head beginning to crown. Unfortunately he was kicked out of the room after they the bed ready to deliver; I didn't know this until after. He said he was told to wait in the hall and they'd call him in when he could cut the umbilical cord. I was quite exhausted after and tried to just sleep as much as I could. The lab work they began prepping me for the c-section revealed my kidneys and liver were not functioning properly.... so turns out I probably did have pre-eclampsia; however, it was never caught by the random urine samples they were doing. Since delivery my kidneys and liver are improving daily, my blood pressure is also slowly normalizing again; however, they prescribed me medication to ensure it stays low. Lillian has been on formula although we are trying breastfeeding. The Pediatrician felt she was smaller than other babies born at the same gestation. So far we have tried breastfeeding one day but she lost too much weight and I'm not producing enough of anything yet to help her gain the extra weight the pediatrician would like to see on her. We only had to stay in the hospital for 2 days after delivery and she was able to room in with Greg and I during the day. She is quite a calm and quiet baby, my difficulty so far has been trying to keep her awake during her feedings but I know with practice she will get better and start growing more.

Being Induced

Well looks like we will be having a baby by Saturday! I went to my doctor's appointment today and my blood pressure was still very high reading at 153/107 and only went down to 140/100 by the time I left so we are starting the induction process tomorrow morning. I will check in at 10am (that should be about 7pm US time) they will start pitocin and I will have 48 hrs to progress. I'm currently at 1cm 0% effacing so there is no guarantee that the pitocin will cause me to dilate even with the strong contractions. If I don't dilate in the 48 hrs we will do a c-section. It wasn't exactly what I had in mind with my birth plan but at this point it is better to have her out safely.... keeping her in there any longer than we need to with my blood pressure that high is not good for me or her. So we could have a baby anywhere from 1-3 days depending how things go.

Week 37

In terms of baby development, Lillian is considered full term this week; so if she is born now her lungs and other organs should be able to function on their own without needing time in the NICU. Although my due date is still 3 weeks away, she could come at anytime now; however, most babies stay in just gaining weight the final weeks.

I've had another period of contractions this past week; however, these were stronger and intensified more than previous times. They lasted about six hours and kept me awake; however, I had a lot of back labor and that seemed to keep me up more than the actual tightening of the contraction. It made it very difficult to time them and I realize I need to find out what to do in that situation; I didn't go in but rather just tried to keep laying down and they finally eased up about 4am. At my doctor's appointment this week she will be checking my cervix to see if I'm thinning or dilating. I'll provide an update on this post after the appointment.

UPDATE: Well I spent another 6 hrs in L&D for high blood pressure. My doctor has me taking my blood pressure at home and I'm supposed to go in if I have two abnormal readings of 140/90 in one day. After going in daily she upped it to 140/100. They took it three different times while I was there and it didn't really seem to go down until the last reading (still at 130/90; prior it was 147/107) When I go in for this they usually hook me up to the monitors for 20-30 min to check on the baby, continue to monitor my blood pressure and if it is still high run a urine sample to check for protein as it would mean I have pre-eclampsia (basically my kidneys begin to go into failure and spill protein in my body; so far the test always comes back negative but they only do random urine samples here. In the states they'd also do blood work and a 24hr urine collection) Anyway, I had had some pretty strong contractions earlier in the day but they seemed to have tapered off by the time I got to the hospital. I was surprised to see I was still contracting every 5 min while in L&D. They checked and I'm only 1cm dilated, I'm not thinned out so I'm assuming that means 0% effaced and she says baby's head is engaged. Engagement is measured in stations based on how far of the baby's head is in the pelvic bone as shown in the picture to the right; however, she didn't say what station I'm at. They said since they checked on the baby and did a pelvic exam now I don't need to go see my doctor on Wed.... I emailed her anyway confirming this. All in all, my experiences in L&D are not making me very confident in the staff that will be there while I labor....

UPDATE #2: I received an email from my doctor confirming she still wants me to go to my appointment on Wed. We will discuss the option of inducing since my blood pressure has consistently been high. It has been something I've had to push and I think it's because most Koreans don't have high blood pressure so I can't imagine my doctor sees too many cases in her international patients. I've been quite annoyed and haven't really felt listened to.... I feel like rather than dealing with the high blood pressure and seeing it as an issue she has just been concerned about it possibly turning into pre-eclampsia. Chronic hypertension is defined as a blood pressure of 140/90... my bottom number has consistently been around 90 since hitting the 3rd trimester. However, rather than dealing with that number she simply upped it to 100 before I need to go in. So I'm very relieved to hear we will discuss the possibility of inducing as I know having high blood pressure cannot be good for me or miss Lillian.

My pelvic bone has continued to separate, something I didn't realize is so painful! Hormones that are released during pregnancy help joins and ligaments become more flexible to allow the baby to pass through the pelvic bone. Turns out the ligament that joins the front of my pubic bone (the symphysis pubis in the picture) becomes overstretched and causes a misalignment of my bones. It has lead to painful popping while rolling over in bed and pain getting up from a sitting position. It usually flares up if I walk too long earlier in the day. Unfortunately there is nothing that can really be done, I just have to hope that it goes away after pregnancy. My belly has also started to disappear the last few days, it's been quite odd. I'm assuming it is just her changing positions and dropping further down; however, it's hard to tell if I'm feeling pain from her dropping or if it is from my bones separating. Although I think she's dropped I still feel feet in my ribs at night; I think now that she is lower it just gives her more room to stretch out!

According to babycenter.com, here is what is going on with Lillian this week:

How your baby's growing:

Your baby is now considered "full term," even though your due date is three weeks away. If you go into labor now, his lungs will likely be mature enough to fully adjust to life outside the womb. (Some babies need a bit more time, though. So if you're planning to have a repeat c-section, for example, your practitioner will schedule it for no earlier than 39 weeks unless there's a medical reason to intervene earlier.)

Your baby weighs 6 1/3 pounds and measures a bit over 19 inches, head to heel (like a stalk of Swiss chard). Many babies have a full head of hair at birth, with locks from 1/2 inch to 1 1/2 inches long. But don't be surprised if your baby's hair isn't the same color as yours. Dark-haired couples are sometimes thrown for a loop when their children come out as blonds or redheads, and fair-haired couples have been surprised by Elvis look-alikes. And then, of course, some babies sport only peach fuzz.